This past weekend we celebrated a very special moment together. Without you even knowing, we celebrated not only your 5th birthday but also something much more important. We celebrated love. After a sleep over, dinners, theme parks, and presents, I was able to hold you. I was able to love you. I cherished that moment as I slowly rocked you because I know that before long another 5 years will pass in the blink of an eye.
You are my baby! My princess! You are sweet and vulnerable, fragile yet strong. You are everything I want in a daughter and I am SO proud of you! Everything about you screams “BEAUTIFUL”, both your inner and outer reflection. God could not have created a more perfect you. Your thoughtfulness and caring energy sends warm comfort to my spirit. You give me extra hugs that I “save for later” and kisses to tuck into my pockets. You’ve amazed me with your intelligence and motivation. Your confidence can move mountains! You empower me in every way to live life to my highest potential. Because of you, there is no other road, but the one to success.
Today I am reminded of the many struggles I endured to get us where we are today. I visualize the many sacrifices I made to allow stability to become your foundation. Very often I think of the late night tears I cried and the fear that overtook my soul. I would hold you. As you wrapped your hand around my fingers, it was as if God whispered to me that we were going to be OK. He spoke truth into my heart and it was at that very moment that I knew I would become someone great for you. Everything I’m doing is for you! Being a single mom with a 5 year old while balancing all of life’s other factors is tough work. Sometimes I pray so hard for strength and courage that I get lost in my own thoughts.
Although tough indeed, being your mommy is the most wonderful experience that God had blessed me with. It was 5 years ago that God paved my path to success, to happiness. That path was created through you. Without you I would not be the woman I am today. You’ve taught me the true meaning of trust and unconditional love. Through you I’ve learned to live day to day with patience and compassion. You have profoundly affected every thought that comes to my mind and every decision I’ve made. Being your mother has given purpose to my life and it is my deepest desire to lead a life in which you can follow.
As you continue to grow, the world will become more and more dangerous, full of toxicity and mean girls. Your heart will be broken. You will fall short of your dreams at times and be disappointed in yourself and loved ones. Through these times I promise to be here for you. I promise to be open and honest and to protect you as best I can. When you become tired, you pray. Pray that God not only carries you but that he gives you the strength to endure life’s obstacles. You can have absolutely anything your heart desire is you keep your life aligned with Gods plan for you and pledge to never give up. In a world that falsely reveals how to live your life, I pray that you are not fearful of just being you. I challenge you to never change who you are for the world around you. I am truly blessed to have you in my life. If ever I am not here for you on your greatest accomplishments and most precious moments, know that I am with you in spirit. I will never leave you! I love you from the deepest part of my soul! You will always be my beautiful little girl, no matter how old you get. Happy birthday bay =).